I wasn't there, for the whole thing.
all because of my piano lesson. I just wished, everything could change and I could be there.
I wish, I could take a lift to the 12th floor, climb and jump down. no wait.
maybe, I should just ________________ first.
:/

being part of everything has made almost every single thing I've been involved a disappointment. I've let them down. and I haven't achieved independence yet, regarding yesterday ): I myself am a disappointment-my Take the A Train was screwed thinking of today. no one gives a damn heck care about me huh. might as well I go and vanish myself and fade away from the cruel world.